Despair. Nostalgia. Heartache.
But in talking to one of my best friends, I just found out that he and also our mutual friend (who I've been interested in since we met) have/had feelings for me.
... WHY AM I FINDING THIS OUT NOW?! If I'd known, the disaster that was my last relationship would never have happened...
Intrigue. Giddiness. Major boost in self confidence.
In short, way too many confusing, conflicting emotions, and way too much drama to deal with TWO WEEKS BEFORE FINALS. Thanks, life.
I don't even know what to hope for. Do I want to salvage a relationship that's been making me unhappy because I care about the person? Or do I want to take this as an opportunity to get out and open myself up to new possibilities?
Focus. Three paintings and two photo projects due dead week. Lit final. Econ final. FOCUS.
FUCK.
